A Longing

She reached out

and tenderly touched the doll

the childless woman

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She dressed her dog

in bright sweaters and bows

the childless woman

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She mourned again

as another month passed by

the childless woman

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Wendy ❀ 2015

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… a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.

Proverbs 13:12

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I’m enjoying the relationship I have with my three children.

Every once in a while I remember

being the woman in the poem,

and my soul sings thanksgiving.

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Some families start unexpectedly or predictably.

Some are made through adoption.

Some through marriage.

Some families, like ours, are formed after years of waiting

and hoping

and praying.

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Only those who have walked the path of infertility know how lonely it can be.

If a woman loses a baby

everyone comforts her.

But what do you say to someone who is losing the baby of her heart

month after month

year after year?

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The worst things anyone said to me were:

 “Maybe you’re not praying right.”

“Maybe you need to learn a lesson about relinquishment.”

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The best thing anyone ever said to me was

nothing.

She was a kindred spirit I’d become friends with

while we both lived in the same tiny community.

She blessed me with her silence.

With her hugs.

With her prayers.

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And over a decade later she rejoiced with me.

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My teen daughter and I love to shop together.

We also love to laugh, talk, and walk.

We hug, cry, and pray together too.

Today’s pictures are from a visit to our local Filberg Park.

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 I’m no longer waiting for children,

but my daughter insists I need to get a dog

to replace the little sweetheart of a teddy bear I lost last year.

Kara, my daughter, is a cat person (she has an adorable kitty),

so when she mentions dogs

it’s because she’s seeing through my eyes.

And that’s what real friends do too.

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But my heart is full,

full of family and full of creativity.

I’ll wait until the time is right.

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He settles the barren woman in her home

as a happy mother of children.

Praise the LORD.

Psalm 113:9

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What special longing did you receive after an extended wait?

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Blessings of fulfillment ~ Wendy ❀

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And speaking of mother and daughters,

I want to thank Cynthia Reyes (author of A Good Home ) for hosting a contest

 to win a free media consultation with her media savvy daughter,

Lauren Reyes-Grange

My name was chosen along with one other person.

Thanks to Gallivanta I learned about Cynthia’s blog and book.

Then I listened to a CBC radio interview

featuring Cynthia (she’s an award winning Canadian journalist)

and I immediately bought and read her memoir.

You can read my review of this 5 star Canadian book

on my Goodreads link below.

Now I’m itching to write a memoir one day.

And I know I’ll be reading her next book.

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